When it comes to discussing my husband, Jeremy,
I am usually very conflicted.
I desperately want to tell others our real story…..
But I don’t EVER EVER EVER want to dishonor him!
So, I don’t say much.
I have young children, too, and they have to be my main priority.
And they ARE. I have always been very honest with them about their daddy, applying alot of wisdom in HOW I explain things to them.
But if I’m going to have any shot at genuine HEALING,
I’m going to have to tell the truth….
Sometimes, he would “jokingly” refer to me as his “third child.”
Sadly, I think that’s how he saw me much of the time.
It had to be very frustrating for him to try to adjust to all the dramatic changes he witnessed in me, and to pick up the slack that my new condition created.
I loved him for that.
When you say “in sickness and in health, for better or for worse”….
It’s no joke when those vows hit very close to home.
I didn’t get the miracle that I wanted.