“If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, Then how can you contend with horses? And if in the land of peace, In which you trusted, they wearied you, Then how will you do in the floodplain of the Jordan?”

Jeremiah 12:5 NKJV

“So, Jeremiah, if you’re worn out in this footrace with men, what makes you think you can race against horses? And if you can’t keep your wits during times of calm, what’s going to happen when troubles break loose like the Jordan in flood?”

Jeremiah 12:5 MSG

Back in my late twenties, this used to be one of my favorite verses.

I have to laugh at my little Bambi-like self back then.😁

I had NO CLUE about what real pain was!

I was, literally AND figuratively,

Untouched.

Untouched by trauma, and untouched by pain.

Innocent and extremely naive! (Well, maybe not “innocent”😊)

Now, every pain that I look back on….

Tumors, surgeries, miscarriage…

Betrayal….

Even stroke….

Seems like a race against man.

I guess that’s the case because they no longer have a tight grip, like a vise,

On my life.

But this.

This battle I’m in right now….

A battle that’s, truthfully, been going on for YEARS…

Well, this one tops them all.

You can just forget about RACING against horses,

Because I’m just trying not to get trampled to death by all of them!

I told someone last night that I’m afraid not everyone in my family is going to make it out of this thing alive.

I’m so drained,

And there are just

Too many horses.

You have these kind of battles, too…

Don’t you??

The kind where you would almost swear you could see hoof prints up and down your back?

Well, the funny thing is,

I think I’ve felt this particular way during each traumatic moment in my life…

A sense that I wouldn’t make it through this very tough thing.

But then,

I do.

I wonder if I’ll ever look back and reflect on this season in my life as being a race against man, instead of the horses I see right now.

If we are granted more days on this earth,

There WILL be more horses.

More races we feel helpless and unable to win.

There WILL be more horses.

There WILL be more impossible situations up ahead.

There WILL be pains that seem completely unbearable.

But there will also be

Jesus.

And He is NOT an afterthought!!

He is not someone we relinquish our battles to, after we’ve done all we can.

He’s fought every battle FOR us, up to this point.

And He promises that WE win, in the end!

So, that tells me that this battle is not really ME against a bunch of horses.

No.

This battle is HIS.

He fought every battle that threatened to keep us from heaven,

And He will fight all our horses, too.

We may feel like it’s too much.

We may feel like we are barely hanging on.

We may feel a bunch of different terrible things.

But THAT’S when you speak TRUTH to yourself…

NOT FEELINGS!

Feelings are born from the heart, which is “deceitful above all things”.

You may FEEL like these horses are far too fast to race.

That you can’t keep up…

That they are going to stomp on top of all that you hold dear.

And you may lose precious things along the way….

But you are not fighting alone!!

Jesus promises we WILL lose important stuff,

But we will NEVER lose HIM!

So….

Don’t.

Give.

Up.

Horses

8 thoughts on “Horses

  1. Pami,
    This is such a powerful post. I’m reading this after your husband is gone from earth. How comforting it must be for you to see how God has prepared your heart.

    I know we can never really be full prepared, but it does show that Our God is a Mighty a Refuge in times of trouble. I pray for you many times.

    • Wow, Ann. “To see how God has prepared your heart.” What a powerful phrase!! That’s what all the pain and trouble prior to his death was all about!! He was PREPARING my heart!! Thank you for this!

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