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Oh God, You are my God;

Early will I seek You;

My soul thirsts for You;

My flesh longs for You

In a dry and thirsty land 

Where there is no water.

So I have looked  for You in the sanctuary, 

Tossed Your power and glory. 

Because Your love is better than life,

My lips shall praise You.

Psalm 63

Maybe some of you are like me.  I’m kind of counting on it. 

David was like me,  if nobody else is. 

He felt the pain of each rejection,  both big and small,  like a knife plunged through his back! 

People fail us. 

People disappear from our everyday lives…even the ones you SWORE  never would. 

People will often betray us with the withdrawal of their love.

It is all so painful.

And I just want to feel relief! 

Joy again!

I  NEED Jesus!

I really,  REALLY need Him!

I need Him to show up and be exactly what He says He is.

Strong.

Gentle.

Fierce! 

Dependable. 

Tender.

Merciful. 

So patient!

I’m actually desperate for Him lately, and I know that’s good.  But the things that cause that need in me certainly never FEEL good!

I get so angry at myself for getting hurt by other’s  rejections of me, when I  KNOW there’s only One who truly matters!

I  NEED Him! 

I  THIRST for Him!

I was reminded this morning that His love truly IS better than life.

Life on this earth.

Life with imperfect people,  just as imperfect as I am.

Imperfection  banging and CRASHING  against somebody else’s imperfection.

That’s our world.  That’s where we live. 

But it’s those very imperfections that DRAW us, LEAD us, COMPELL us, to seek Jesus. 

Do you know what it means to actually THIRST for Him???

I didn’t used to know. 

But He is faithful to fill us up,  to satisfy the thirst, the NEED.

And I’m going to let Him.