Recently, I received some pretty negative feedback about my blog. That’s the thing about blogs. You have to take the hurtful comments along with the positive ones. One of the comments was this: “When are you going to close the door on your stroke?” At first it was okay, but now it’s a bit much, and most of us are over it. Besides, where is God in your blog? He is nowhere to be found. It’s becoming self-indulgent.”
When I first received this comment, I will admit I cried. One of my biggest weaknesses, is that I am a people pleaser, even though I’m getting better about it. Anyway, I took a long, hard look at the situation, reread all of my blogs, and most of all, prayed.
So, I’m going to address this point by point, not to defend myself and not to be petty. But, what if other people feel the way this person does? The last thing I want to be is a hindrance to somebody knowing who God is. To help people understand where I’m coming from, I’m going to attempt this, okay?
The first sentence: How could I close the door on my stroke? It is not a broken leg, something that in time will completely heal. It is ever present in most aspects of my life. There’s that and there’s also the fact that I keep getting them.
Second sentence: I kind of agree with this one, to an extent. It’s VERY easy to be “over” something that has never happened to you, so it must be a drag to read it if you feel that way. And to that end, I would really like you to NOT read it if it’s really bothering you. But I WILL say, that there are at least 300 or so stroke survivors who read it each week, and they know there’s really no “getting over it.” Plus, all of the people who have suffered a deep loss have probably been told in so many words to “get over it.” It seems ruder to say that to someone who lost a child than it does to say that to someone who had a stroke, which is pretty hurtful. A loss is a loss.
Third sentence: This one really hurt. If you can’t see God in my blogs, then I’m not sure where you’re looking. Because to me, He is EVERYWHERE in them! I challenged myself to use this blog a few months into it to not only study verses and give my insight, but to also share the gospel by challenging who WE ALL have known God to be! Granted, that’s at the very beginning of the gospel, but it’s definitely a part. How will anyone make a genuine commitment to God unless they know the TRUTH about who He is? I take my role in all of this VERY seriously.
Last part: Self indulgent. Honestly, putting my whole heart out there so that everyone can see the mess that it is, is extremely difficult! And I never do that, thinking to exalt myself in any way. I only want to give glory to God for taking so much time showing a pitiful little girl who her God is.
Okay. That’s it.
Now here’s what I learned from this whole hullabaloo.
I KNOW that Satan would LOVE for me to think that the person who wrote these words must hate me and is my enemy. But the only enemy I will EVER have is him!
I’ve gotten several really encouraging verses that have really helped me remember who I’m battling against!
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, And whose hope is the Lord. 8 For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, Which spreads out its roots by the river, And will not fear when heat comes; But its leaf will be green, And will not be anxious in the year of drought, Nor will cease from yielding fruit
And here’s my favorite!
Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord.
This is MY walk, MY journey. So, I’m just gonna keep on walking. 🙂